A bad meditation session

Posted on August 6th, 2008 under Ashtanga Diary

I’m equally enjoying the short meditations throughout the day, as well as the mid-length ones I do typically early in the morning and also mid afternoon to rejuvenate my mind and body.

But some times, once in a while, I have a “bad” meditation experience during the mid-length ones. The worst one was this last Monday night’s class. To finish the class, we were going to do a mid-length breath meditation. I’m usually pretty good at breath meditation, which I think I developed during yoga, but this one time it was horrid.

I started to feel claustrophobic, anxious, frustrated, antsy, and generally horrible. I couldn’t sit still and all I wanted to do was bolt. I’ve had this feeling before, and I usually do interrupt the meditation and come back to it later on in the day, but this time I was in class, and I didn’t feel as if I could leave, so I sat through it.

It was probably the worst 10-12 minutes I’ve had in a loooooong time. When it was over, I mentioned it to Eric and he explained that these “bad” meditations do happen, and what I have to determine is whether it gets better as the meditation goes along, in which case I stick with it, or if it gets worse, in which case, I should stop the meditation. He said it tends to happen to younger folks who meditate who may have more energy in them.

Thankfully I haven’t had another bad meditation session, in fact, I just came out of a very nice one a few minutes ago…. lovely.

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